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Therapy = Concluded
For now, anyway.
Last night was my final meeting with my therapist, who came back briefly from her maternity leave so we could have a concluding session. It was mostly me talking about some revelations I've had in the meantime (that aren't necessary to go into here), and her describing how she saw my progress over our time together, and especially when compared to the first time I saw her in 2016. She said that I was easier to talk to, that I seemed more present and less coldly formal in my interactions with her, and that I was overall happier. That it was progress that a lot of people are unable to make.
I think she's right. Not just because I feel happier--though I do--but also I've had a lot of friends tell me the same thing. I don't filter everything through ritual or particular requirements anymore, and I'm perfectly willing to drop my solitary evening plans if a friend texts or, vice versa, text a friend and see if they want to come along to whatever it is I'm doing that night. I make more plans, I go to more things, I do more. I still play plenty of video games, but I do it when I'm alone and don't make time for it. When I'm on my deathbed, I doubt my regrets will be like, "I never finished Witcher III."
I even spontaneously invited a bunch of people to Shabbat dinner tonight!
No one could come, but that's understandable. We're all adults with lives. But that's something I never would have done a couple years ago without at least two weeks' planning. Of course, if I had planned further in advance, maybe people could have come, and I'll remember that for next time.
At the end, my therapist gave me a hug and said that she'd send an email when she was coming back from maternity leave to check up on me. Will I need it? I don't know--there's value in therapy even if there's nothing explicitly "wrong" with you. But at the moment, I'm happy to part with the knowledge that I've made enough progress to almost be a different person in some ways.
And now, forward.
Last night was my final meeting with my therapist, who came back briefly from her maternity leave so we could have a concluding session. It was mostly me talking about some revelations I've had in the meantime (that aren't necessary to go into here), and her describing how she saw my progress over our time together, and especially when compared to the first time I saw her in 2016. She said that I was easier to talk to, that I seemed more present and less coldly formal in my interactions with her, and that I was overall happier. That it was progress that a lot of people are unable to make.
I think she's right. Not just because I feel happier--though I do--but also I've had a lot of friends tell me the same thing. I don't filter everything through ritual or particular requirements anymore, and I'm perfectly willing to drop my solitary evening plans if a friend texts or, vice versa, text a friend and see if they want to come along to whatever it is I'm doing that night. I make more plans, I go to more things, I do more. I still play plenty of video games, but I do it when I'm alone and don't make time for it. When I'm on my deathbed, I doubt my regrets will be like, "I never finished Witcher III."
I even spontaneously invited a bunch of people to Shabbat dinner tonight!
No one could come, but that's understandable. We're all adults with lives. But that's something I never would have done a couple years ago without at least two weeks' planning. Of course, if I had planned further in advance, maybe people could have come, and I'll remember that for next time.At the end, my therapist gave me a hug and said that she'd send an email when she was coming back from maternity leave to check up on me. Will I need it? I don't know--there's value in therapy even if there's nothing explicitly "wrong" with you. But at the moment, I'm happy to part with the knowledge that I've made enough progress to almost be a different person in some ways.
And now, forward.
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