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Real Ultimate Power plus Dental
2021-Jan-13, Wednesday 09:15
The title is a bit of a misnomer because I already get dental.
I've been worried about this year's work evaluation for a while, not because I had anything specific to worry about, but because I had nothing specific to focus on at all. I wrote about this earlier this year, but due to the switch to the new system, everything was thrown into flux. We were told that part of the impetus for the switch was that the new system would keep metrics itself, and then after its implementation it turned out that it didn't. By that point (much later in the year), I hadn't been keeping my own personal metrics at all, so I had no idea what to base my performance review on. I just put in what I had and hoped for the best and...it worked? On the one hand, I'm glad that my worries didn't come to pass, but on the other hand, this just reinforces my conviction that my performance reviews are mostly unrelated to my actual performance. I get about the same rating no matter what I do.
The real interesting thing is that my boss seems to be pushing me towards management. She randomly had me take a class about being an authentic manager earlier this year, even though I'm currently not in management (though it turned out that half the people in the class didn't have any reports even if they had management-level titles, so maybe it didn't matter) and she reiterated it during my evaluation. She pointed out that she didn't ever think of herself as being a manager until her manager came and asked her if she had considered it and yeah, I can see the parallel she's trying to draw here. I'm not sure--on the one hand, I've been doing my job for a while and a change and promotion would be nice, but on the other hand, with a child on the way am I going to want to be sitting in meetings and otherwise not as able to step away from the computer? But I don't want to turn down this opportunity because that's implicitly turning down every future opportunity that comes.
I'll have to give this a lot of thought.
I've been worried about this year's work evaluation for a while, not because I had anything specific to worry about, but because I had nothing specific to focus on at all. I wrote about this earlier this year, but due to the switch to the new system, everything was thrown into flux. We were told that part of the impetus for the switch was that the new system would keep metrics itself, and then after its implementation it turned out that it didn't. By that point (much later in the year), I hadn't been keeping my own personal metrics at all, so I had no idea what to base my performance review on. I just put in what I had and hoped for the best and...it worked? On the one hand, I'm glad that my worries didn't come to pass, but on the other hand, this just reinforces my conviction that my performance reviews are mostly unrelated to my actual performance. I get about the same rating no matter what I do.
The real interesting thing is that my boss seems to be pushing me towards management. She randomly had me take a class about being an authentic manager earlier this year, even though I'm currently not in management (though it turned out that half the people in the class didn't have any reports even if they had management-level titles, so maybe it didn't matter) and she reiterated it during my evaluation. She pointed out that she didn't ever think of herself as being a manager until her manager came and asked her if she had considered it and yeah, I can see the parallel she's trying to draw here. I'm not sure--on the one hand, I've been doing my job for a while and a change and promotion would be nice, but on the other hand, with a child on the way am I going to want to be sitting in meetings and otherwise not as able to step away from the computer? But I don't want to turn down this opportunity because that's implicitly turning down every future opportunity that comes.
I'll have to give this a lot of thought.
