Winter is coming
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I was young, and vampires were monsters. This was a horror game! You were transformed into a terrible creature of the night forced to stalk the living, to drink blood to survive, and ground down under the feet of the elders. What an amazing setting.
Well, that was twenty years ago. Now that I'm older, I can see that Vampire, and Werewolf, and Mage all have the appeal of the young. In Vampire, you play a fledgeling vampire, thrust into a society in which you are at the bottom and all the people older than you have already taken all the power and authority for themselves. You're going to have to fight them and take it yourself. In Werewolf, corporations are literally killing the planet because they're evil, like Captain Planet villains. And in Mage, if you can't accomplish something it's because you didn't believe hard enough. Anything is possible if you have the will and drive to accomplish it.
But no, the real horror game for me now is Changeling. Changeling, which I had no idea what to do with as a kid, which posited faeries hidden in human bodies, trying desperately to keep their dreams alive against the crushing mundanity of the world, knowing that they will inevitably fail and become Undone, the mortal body taking over as the faerie soul sleeps until its next incarnation.
I used to have multiple weekly or biweekly games I played in, even during COVID. Then they dwindled to no weekly games, then only one biweekly game, and now...nothing. No physical dice have been rolled in my house in years. I look at my bookshelves full of RPGs and see not promise and a surfeit of ideas but the falling grains of an hourglass as I'm forced to admit that many, perhaps most, of the games I've bought will never be played and some of them may never even be read. Some of them I've owned for close to a decade and haven't even opened. There is simply not enough time.
And that's the message of Changeling, and of life. There's not enough time to accomplish all that you want to do, or even a portion of what you want to do. I used to read 80 books a year and my to-read list still never got any shorter. There are more good video games coming out now than I would ever have time to play even if I were a shut-in NEET, much less as a family man. I lived in Japan for years and did not get to go to all the places I wanted to in the Chūgoku region, much less Japan, much less East Asia. I've been playing Hollow Knight for six months because I keep using the time I could be playing it to work on my Cataclysm mod. You have to pick and choose, and the doors you open mean that, by necessity, other doors close. Even by staying up to write this, I've closed the door on getting a full eight hours of sleep.
The horror of Changeling is not that you will die--though of course, you will--but that life will grind you down and narrow your vision and crush your dreams to the point that the you of twenty years ago would avert their eyes in disgust, or simply would not recognize you, if they had to see the you now.
Probably going to stay up a bit longer.
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Date: 2023-Oct-23, Monday 05:42 (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-Oct-23, Monday 18:42 (UTC)When I was younger, I wanted to play/run Vampire and read Changeling. Now it's mostly the other way around!
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Date: 2023-Oct-23, Monday 10:22 (UTC)I've got the book and played LARP in a upstairs room in a pub. I was a Tremere called Franchesca Lucescu. I was an older LARP beginner and the youngsters were patient until I got the hang of it. I was living in Edinburgh, Scotland, at the time which has a huge White Wolf games following.
I have to admit I never understood Changeling.
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Date: 2023-Oct-23, Monday 18:53 (UTC)I have to admit I never understood Changeling.
I think that Changeling did a lot to make itself harder to understand. Like, it's about the death of dreams, but the idea that science is the death of hope that they imported from Mage and Werewolf makes no sense considering all the scientists who say in interviews that watching or reading sci fi as a kid got them into science. The "Changelings fight dragons but no one can see them" thing also made it so they seemed like they were in a different world than everyone else. It had a bit of an identity crisis it never really got over.
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Date: 2023-Oct-24, Tuesday 07:19 (UTC)Would it be OK to republish this with credits?
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Date: 2023-Oct-24, Tuesday 19:02 (UTC)It was a game before its time.
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Date: 2023-Oct-30, Monday 04:40 (UTC)Last RPG I played was ... two years ago? Three years ago? A oneshot for a friend's birthday.
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Date: 2023-Nov-09, Thursday 03:49 (UTC)The armadillo was statted as a barbarian-ish warrior, but I bought him some scholarly skills and played him as a meticulous botanist who absolutely lost it (raged) when his extremely fancy clockwork terrarium hat was threatened (the GM had enemies accidentally hit the hat on the rebound or something whenever I wanted to use rage). Not a complex character, but fun for a birthday one-shot. Would enjoy revisiting him ... sometime.
A bunch of people on tumblr are making 200-word games and it's been interesting reading them. You ever do something like that?
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Date: 2023-Nov-10, Friday 16:22 (UTC)This sounds like a Studio Ghibli character to me. You could build a Miyazaki movie around a ten-year-old protagonist with the armadillo as their traveling companion.
You ever do something like that?
No, I haven't! A long time ago I played through a game of Hikikomori. It's slightly longer than 200 words I think, but it's a similar very focused concept. What's the best 200-word RPG you've read?
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