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My sinews have withered grievously
2026-May-12, Tuesday 13:52
I like how I put that into Google and the soulless machine summary immediately popped up with a helpful definition and usage as though this is some common phrase that we all know from our school days.
Having finally beaten Wall World and done some catch-up on Final Fantasy XIV, I've been thinking about what I want to play next. I want to play through Actraiser, which I've played but never beaten in the past, but after that I think it's time to finally play through Final Fantasy III. So I scrolled through my Steam game list to find it, since I know I booted it up not that long ago to make sure the Japanese language option works, and I find it and it says:
But no, it wasn't that long ago, was it? It can't be, I clearly remember doing it. How can it be two years ago?
I do think a lot about how the Plague Years really feel like they threw the world out of balance.![[instagram.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/profile_icons/instagram.png)
sashagee and I have been together for six years but it feels much longer than that, and it felt much longer than that even a couple years ago. On the other hand, my life where I was going out most nights, back in 2018-2020, wasn't that long ago but it feels like an entirely different lifetime. This is also the weird part about being older is that my memories feel unstuck in time--things that happened ten years ago (like my last trip to Japan) are clear in my mind and don't feel any older than the Hawai'i trip I took recently. Intellectually I know it's because memories have no time sense, their vividness is based on the emotional impression they leave on you, and I also know that your sense of time changes when you get older because a year is an increasingly-smaller fraction of your life, but it's still weird to have all these events I know took place at quite-different times seem like they might have happened recently.
Still going to play Final Fantasy III this year. I wonder if that'll be fresh in my mind in a decade?
Having finally beaten Wall World and done some catch-up on Final Fantasy XIV, I've been thinking about what I want to play next. I want to play through Actraiser, which I've played but never beaten in the past, but after that I think it's time to finally play through Final Fantasy III. So I scrolled through my Steam game list to find it, since I know I booted it up not that long ago to make sure the Japanese language option works, and I find it and it says:
Last Played: April 24, 20242024?
But no, it wasn't that long ago, was it? It can't be, I clearly remember doing it. How can it be two years ago?I do think a lot about how the Plague Years really feel like they threw the world out of balance.
sashagee and I have been together for six years but it feels much longer than that, and it felt much longer than that even a couple years ago. On the other hand, my life where I was going out most nights, back in 2018-2020, wasn't that long ago but it feels like an entirely different lifetime. This is also the weird part about being older is that my memories feel unstuck in time--things that happened ten years ago (like my last trip to Japan) are clear in my mind and don't feel any older than the Hawai'i trip I took recently. Intellectually I know it's because memories have no time sense, their vividness is based on the emotional impression they leave on you, and I also know that your sense of time changes when you get older because a year is an increasingly-smaller fraction of your life, but it's still weird to have all these events I know took place at quite-different times seem like they might have happened recently.Still going to play Final Fantasy III this year. I wonder if that'll be fresh in my mind in a decade?
