dorchadas: (Kirby Celebrating with food)
Happy New Year! I drank too much last night and I haven't felt 100% today, but it was nice and relaxing. [instagram.com profile] thosesocks invited me and some other people over for a quiet day listening to folk music and eating cheese. I made zenzai, traditional Japanese red bean New Year's soup, and [instagram.com profile] thosesocks made tea for us all, and now I'm at home with a wood-wick candle burning and watching Reverse Angle's take on the 1998 Godzilla.

It's been a good year. On Facebook, I wrote:
I went into 2019, teeth barred and a knife behind my back, ready to immediately start stabbing the moment it looked like anything was threatening.

Three, maybe four months in, I put the knife down and kept walking, and I haven't felt the lack.

People repeatedly tell me how different I am. How I seem like an almost completely different person than I used to. They tell me that I'm more social than they could have imagined even for themselves, and ask me how I have the energy to do it. My *sister* told me that she was jealous of my social life and asked me for my secret, and let me tell you, that was the day that Hell froze over.

At my last party, people kept asking me "How do you know all these people!?"

The story of the last decade was, I suppose, of being a plant in a glass bottle. I had plenty of light and water, but when I hit the edge of the bottle I just stopped growing and I figured that was the limit of the world. When in 2018 the glass shattered, I thought that it was a world-ending disaster...but it actually let me grow in ways I hadn't thought were previously possible.

In 2019 I made a bunch of new friends. I started dating again. I put down the video games that have defined my life for thirty years because I *don't have time to play* because I'm too busy seeing people, going to theatre shows, watching movies at friends' houses, and going to museums. I am, in other words, a new man.

So, bring on the roaring 2020s. Give me neon noir, synthwave jazz, electric-blue cocktails in dingy speakeasies, black trenchcoats with collars turned up against climate-change-induced polar vortices, and, hopefully, a story I can start with "And then she walked in." I am more than ready
So there's a good summary of my year! It was a great year overall.

The song that defined my 2018 was "Dynasty," by Miia:


The scar I can't reverse
When the more it heals the worse it hurts
Gave you every piece of me, no wonder it's missing
Don't know how to be so close to someone so distant

And all I gave you is gone
Tumbled like it was stone
Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake
Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made
Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break
Up


But the song that defined 2019 was "Gorgeous" by Illenium:


Sometimes I gotta pinch myself
Oh, gorgeous
Hello today
Well let me introduce myself
Oh, gorgeous

All those days that passed me by
I can’t believe I’m still alive
They say you need the dark to shine
It’s like I can see for the first time
And it’s gorgeous
It was a good year.

Here's my answers for the traditional New Year's forty questions meme:

Forty questions )
dorchadas: (Cherry Blossoms)
一羽の鳥が鳴いている
名前のない空に私を探して
優しさで編み続けた
ゆりかごで明日へいこう
晴れの日も雨の日にも
あなたを守るために
"Your voice is my guidepost / A lone bird is crying out / searching for me in the nameless sky / The kindness I've woven / into a cradle will bear me into tomorrow / On clear days and rainy days too / So I can protect you."

I've listened to that song roughly two hundred times in the last day, so it's definitely on my mind.

I went to the discussion about Violet Evergarden, my notes about which I posted here, and unlike the time when I went to the discussion about Your Lie in April, this time I broadly agreed with everyone's else opinion. We talked about the beautiful art--here's one of the standout parts, where Violet walks on water (very briefly)--the emotional journey that Violet makes over the course of the show and how her almost-robotic demeanor in the beginning serves her later growth, how glad we were that the Major didn't come back at the end and undo most of her development, and how great the music was. I'm in agreement with all of that, and now I want to track down the light novel the anime was based on. I've heard it's full of anime bullshit--in a pseudo-European setting, Violet Evergarden fights with an eight-foot-long axe named "Witchcraft" with which she can deflect bullets--but you know, some anime bullshit is par for the course, I guess. Emoji Sad pikachu flag And it'll be good Japanese practice.

Earlier this week I saw on Twitter that there was an exhibit at the Art Institute called The Mezzotints of Hamanishi Katsunori closing today, so after work on Thursday I went to the Art Institute's free day. I didn't get any good pictures of his work, but you can see some examples here. Apparently mezzotinting is layering black over the canvas and then scraping it off gradually to lighten certain areas. Maybe that's why some of them seemed almost three-dimensional, popping off the canvas in a way that I definitely couldn't capture with my iPhone camera. The art is part of the museum's collection, so maybe it'll rotate out on display again soon.

I did take this picture elsewhere in the Japanese art section of a sakura tree. It's that time of year:

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Tomorrow--today Japan time--they're release the new Imperial Era name. I'm actually kind of in suspense. It's going from 平成 (Heisei, "Peace Everywhere," from a Chinese classical reference, apparently), to...who knows. 昭和 was also about peace, so maybe it'll be another peace reference? I can't wait! Emoji La

Live update, as I am writing this: 令和 reiwa. Maybe "Peaceful law"? It could be "Commanded to peace," but that seems harsh for an era name.

My book club has been reading Sin in the Second City, about a Chicago brothel at the turn of the 20th century. The most mind-blowing part of the book is the claim that the verb "to get laid" comes from the Everleigh Club, the aforementioned brothel, about which patrons would say they were "going to get Everleighed," and after the club's closure the Ever was dropped and the spelling changed. I always figured it was from "to lay down"! Language is amazing.

That's everyting that happened lately. I spent most of this weekend watching Violet Evergarden--I left it all for the last minute and had to watch the whole thing last night and this morning--went to Starlight Radio Dreams on Friday, stopped by [Bad username or site: @ twitter.com name=]'s apartment briefly on Thursday to eat some of her surfeit of dessert, and otherwise there's not much to report.

Less week seems more laid back at the moment, but we'll see!
dorchadas: (Maedhros A King Is He (No Text))
There's a part of me that views "Pretty Little Psycho" as a romantic love ballad:
You're lookin' crazy, you're lookin' wrong
It looks like we're gonna get along
And once I've got you, it's a fact
Baby, there's no turning back

Make me, make me impressed
Make me, make me obsessed
...and I'm glad I found that out about myself, because now I can track it down and kill it. Emoji Commissar

This post is brought to you by the database at work, which has had roughly 50% downtime this week. Obviously this is completely unacceptable, but there's nothing I can do about it except wait, so I'm doing coding practice, reading シカゴの夏は短すぎ posts, and reading the Onyx Path Publishing forums. I did even more enhancements on the database front end, re: this post, and now I'm about 80% faster than I was before I made some simple changes. Turns out those hotkeys I asked for years ago when they were soliciting feedback from us about what we needed were actually useful, huh?

Not that I'm annoyed or anything. Emoji pissed off

I don't think I've done much of anything exciting this week. Started playing Kirby's Return to Dream Land because I wanted something cute and fun. Sure, it doesn't fit the spooky theme of October, but I've already gotten two spooky games out of the way during the time when I wasn't playing Breath of the Wild. Two or three is about how much I usually get, so I think I've paid my spooky dues. I've only read one spooky book--魔犬 (maken, "Hellhound"), a manga adaptation of H. P. Lovecraft's The Hound--so I'm doing better on the vidya front than the literary one. I'm reading a Vampire: the Masquerade sourcebook now, so maybe that counts?

I've been putting off doing anything about the JET Application because of anxiety and because I was still assembling the materials, but yesterday my transcript from UCC finally arrived so I don't have any more excuses. The sticking point now is recommendations. I think of two people I would trust to provide good recommendations who qualify under the terms of the application, and I need...two. So if either of them doesn't feel they can recommend me, I'm not sure what I'll do. But I need to ask because I'll have to come up with an alternate course of action if that does happen. I'm planning to email them this weekend as well as fill out all the forms--thankfully online now, rather than the all-hardcopy it was last time I applied--and then the hard part will be writing a personal statement. But I think that will be much easier than it was last time because now I can draw on my actual experience of living and teaching in Japan. Why do I want to do this, you ask? Oh well, about that. 🇯🇵

Alright, back to studying React and waiting for support to do their jobs. They don't even have an interesting 404 page! Just "404 ERROR" in the upper left on blank white. Sigh.

New theme song

2018-Aug-11, Saturday 21:42
dorchadas: (Maedhros anime)
I went to get a trim today at the hair salon and every single stylist in the salon said that they were jealous of my (waist-length red) hair.

Also, I found a new theme song.



lyrics )

Has to be the nightcore version to have the proper energy. Emoji Quest For Glory Dance
dorchadas: (Broken Dream)
Well, that was a year!

Last year, [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd and I went to [twitter.com profile] resaamnesia's New Year's Eve party, along with a giant bottle of お屠蘇 (otoso), like we did the year before. It was good! At least, I thought so. I don't think many other people drank much of it, other than when [tumblr.com profile] chronicluscious mixed it with rose water and made a mixed drink that even [tumblr.com profile] oddsboy wouldn't drink, which is an accomplishment in itself. I'm told it smelled really good but tasted like soap. I'm glad I missed it. I stuck with plain お屠蘇 like I did last year. It was delicious.

Looking at last year's retrospective, I did accomplish some of my goals. I was a bit more social, and I was much more serious about Japanese. Playing all those video games in Japanese and reading 世界の中心で愛を叫ぶ with my Japanese tutor meant that I'm reading substantial lengths of Japanese every week, if not necessarily every day, and still getting plenty of speaking practice. I did play Android this year with [personal profile] drydem and [tumblr.com profile] damaskrosechicago, and won again even though I was Floyd the bioroid this time instead of Raymond the P.I. I still haven't played Kingdom Death, and have all the minis unassembled in boxes around our apartment.

We saved an enormous amount of money coupled with a stock market completely detatched from how the economy is performing for anyone of median income, so on paper we made a bunch of money but our lifestyle hasn't changed at all, and seems to have hit a nice equilibrium where we can put money into both short-term and long-term savings sufficient to have enough to cover emergencies and to save for trips or anything we'd like to buy. We did switch to the new data management system at work and it's Emoji Psyduck boom, but we're probably switching to another system pretty soon. At the moment, I have to deal with the enormous amount of data that the system can't handle, but that's actually job security for me--my entire job is based around computers not being good enough to handle everything themselves yet, so more incompetent computers means more work for me, which means more reason for me to work. I will not complain.

My Warlords of the Mushroom Kingdom game is still going strong, to my happiness. It's not the longest-running game I've ever been in, but it's almost at two years now (it'll hit two years the second week of March). That's really good, since the average game lasts less than a year (around one academic year, in fact).

There's a traditional new year's meme that's going around Dreamwidth and, before it, went around LJ. I've never answered it before, but it provides a nice structure to my retrospective. Here:
Forty questions )

皆様、明けましておめでとうございます。ご健康とご多幸をお祈り申し上げます。新年も宜しくお願い致します。

Happy New Year!

Lyrics of the Fayth

2016-Dec-24, Saturday 22:36
dorchadas: (FFX Yuna Dancing)
So yesterday I was looking up the lyrics of the Hymn of the Fayth from Final Fantasy X, and after a bit of searching, I found a page that listed them as:
Ieyui (pray)
Nobomeno (savior)
Renmiri (dream)
Yojuyogo (child of prayer)
Hasatekanae (forever and ever)
Kutamae. (Grant us peace)
And I thought that can't be right, unless it's an invented language. So I decided to look up 祈りの歌 (Inori no Uta, "The Song of Prayer"), the Hymn of the Fayth's Japanese title, and see if I could find more information on it that way.

The first page I looked at, I found this picture and looking at it, without reading any of the other text, suddenly everything made sense:

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Red and green added by me.

I always thought the words of the Hymn of the Fayth were nonsense, but apparently they're based on a syllable scramble! The song is sung from top to bottom, left to right, red part, then green part. That gives the lyrics above. But if you read it left to right, top to bottom, then it's actually Japanese and reads
Inore yo
Ebon-ju
Yumemiyo
Inorigo
Hatenaku
Sakaetamae
Which translates to:
Pray,
Yu-Yevon
Dream,
O Fayth
Without ceasing
Make us prosper.
That's where the lyrics above came from.

Of course, all this is in the wiki article about the song, so I could have just looked there. But I didn't, and I'm happy I figured this out.
dorchadas: (Broken Dream)
A couple days ago, I read this article about the game Wurm Online and a man who was a king. I found it really poignant, the image of the author and the man riding together through an overgrown and abandoned landscape, littered with the crumbling ruins of what was once a vibrant community of players now almost all gone. A single house, alone in the wilderness, the last remnant of life.

Like this passage:
We haven’t seen a single soul since we left Strongbox but these towers are populated by NPC guards. Reminders that there used to be something worth protecting nearby. In this case, the flat land is peppered with bed frames. It used to be a collection of houses. But none of the walls, roofs or chimney stacks remain. Only bedframes, abandoned and forgotten.
The lone and level sands stretch far away.

The other reason the Wurm Online article hit me is because I played World of Warcraft for six years, for thousands of hours of playtime, and I have almost no posts written about it on here. For a long time, I used my blog as a form of social media before Twitter and Tumble and Facebook rose to the prominence they now occupy, and once those took off, I stopped posting much of anything here that wasn't directly what happened in my daily life. That means I sometimes went weeks or months without posting, and that something that took up a huge portion of my life and the lives of many of my friends for years is left with almost no records. I even ended up accidentally deleting my screenshots at some point. All I have are memories.

Yesterday, [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd and I finished watching ToraDora, after having it on our to-watch list for almost six years. It's a deconstruction of the tsundere--one of the main characters is even voiced by Kugimiya Rie--with a happy ending that works out for nearly everyone. It's very Japanese in that "I will set aside my own happiness for now so that you can be happy and achieve your dreams" way, in multiple directions. And like many other such anime, it ends when high school does, happily, and the future is glowing brightly ahead as the characters walk forward into it. Even though these are high school relationships and the odds of them lasting past the beginning of college is very low, we don't want to see that. We want a happy ending.

That Japanese in the subject translates as "There is nothing that is eternal," which is the title of a story I wrote for that Scion LARP I was in and also one of the bedrock parts of my life philosophy. And while I was searching for the link to that story, I found this question on 知恵袋 (chiebukuro, "fount of knowledge") where someone asks if there is anything in this world that is eternal. One person says love, and one person says time, but the majority answer is that there is nothing.

I think that's what I write so much of my life down now. It's a way of holding out against entropy, of making the transitory experience of playing a single-player video game into something that can be shared with other people, of turning my experience of a good meal or an anime convention or a vacation into a record that will stand for longer than my memories do. There's already been plenty of times when I read an old blog post I wrote and find something I had forgotten or that I was remembering wrong, and writing it down meant that what really happened, or my perception thereof, remains.

We are, all of us, looking for something eternal. We will fail, inevitably. But that doesn't mean we can't try.

We don't build sandcastles in the hope that they'll last forever.

Are you there in my dreams?
Waiting there just for me?
Are you there for me?
Are you there for me?

I won't surrender
While hope still lives in this world...
Kawaii heart emoji photo heart_emoji_by_kawaiiprincess2-d51re77.gif
dorchadas: (Broken Dream)
Current mood:



I've been having a pretty bad week, and I've said so before, and people have been very kind when I have. And then, my brain immediately leaps to one of three possible options:

People Who Didn't Say Anything: It's because they didn't care at all, and probably wish they had never met me in the first place so my whining wouldn't assault their ears.
People Who Said Something In Public: They're grandstanding, making sure to demonstrate their compassion publically. It's all performative.
People Who Said Something In Private: They have an ulterior motive, either not wanting to break their friendship with [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd, not wanting to cause any other rifts among our mutual friends, or it's pity without any actual care behind it.

You can probably see how literally anything anyone says to me can get shunted into one of these three boxes, which makes it pretty difficult for me to hear what's being said. It's like conspiratorial thinking, where evidence proves the conspiracy, unrelated evidence is bent to fit the conspiracy, and lack of evidence just shows how effective the conspiracy is.

I'd like off the conspiracy train, please.
it's that old recurring dream where you're drowning
flailing your arms out, fearful and frantic
and black waves are curling and pounding
down onto your head somewhere in the Atlantic
through the fathoms below you a shadow
is gliding up towards you with singular purpose
and hundreds of thousands of gallons
of ocean froth and foam as it breaks the surface

its black eyes find you almost at once
you can't hide, swim away or take air into your lungs
to scream for help that won't come
dorchadas: (Default)
New Years Rosh Hashanah meme

Nonetheless, I'm writing a New Year's retrospective.

I'm very fortunate that 2014 was a pretty good year for me. A lot of my friends had major shakeups or active disasters, to say nothing of the national or world situation (which are admittedly mostly things that got greater exposure this year rather than being entirely new), but for my family, everything went very well. In honor of the listicle becoming a thing, I'll do this in a list format:
  • Marriage: Still married, [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd is still the best wife ever. This alone helps brighten every year. Emoji Chiyo rush

  • RPGs: I finished off the Delta Green game I started years ago, played in (and wrote up an Actual Play of!) a short-run game run by my wife in a setting I wrote, am playing in her Princess: the Hopeful game, and am currently running two games, a WFRP 2e game and a Fallout ORE game set in Chicago. I'm also slowly working on Warlords of the Mushroom Kingdom, and I have some other ideas in the pipeline when I have more gaming time. I'm set on this score.

  • Work: I didn't get fired in the sudden layoffs a month ago at my job, my performance review was great, I still get to listen to podcasts for hours every day, and I still don't have to talk to anyone. The new managerial team means the future is uncertain, but for the last year, at least, everything was great.

  • Writing: I write a lot nowadays. Between putting more RPG stuff here, Fifty Weeks, Fifty Curries, my book reviews, and starting to write reviews of all the video games I beat...well, I'm not sure how many words a week that is, but it's easily in the thousands. I didn't do NaNoWriMo this year, but I don't need it to compel me to write. I'm doing fine on my own.

  • Video games: I'm happiest that I finally beat Morrowind again, but most of the fond memories I have are of playing with my friends. Minecraft and a Secret of Mana with [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd and Terraria with her and another friend filled a lot of happy hours. I got some of the kickstarters I backed too (Divinity: Original Sin and Wasteland II), but I can't speak to their quality, because I'm waiting for them to be patched up to play them. I even picked up my DS copy of Chrono Trigger and started to run through it again. And finally, I ended up sharing even some of my single-player gaming with my friends through the magic of streaming video. It is truly a Golden Age of gaming on all fronts. Emoji Quest For Glory Dance

  • Exercise: Last year I was worried that I wasn't getting enough walking in, but I easily fixed that problem. My tracking program tells me that I'm getting an average of around 14K steps per day, which is more than enough and is also probably why I go through socks so fast and wore through the soles of my boots and had to replace them in November. On the other hand, I've maintained my weight and I'm very happy with the way I look and feel. The only disadvantage is the amount of money that goes down my throat with all the food I eat...but fortunately we can afford it. The only problem I ran into was smashing my toe on a doorframe, but while it hasn't healed back to the same way it was before I smashed it, it's not actually hindering me in any way, so I can count that a victory. I could have broken it, after all.

  • Money: After years of living close to the bone, [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd graduated from grad school and got a job making over twice what I make at her first choice of school, so we're in good hands for the foreseeable future and I can return to my customary behavior of saving about a quarter of our pre-tax income. I also, through the incredible generosity of my parents during [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd's tenure in school, managed to pay off all of her student loans two days before she graduated, which puts us in an incredibly fortunate situation compared to the vast majority of our peers. We also finally finished off the saga of the Japanese Pension Office payment, receiving our payment roughly two and a half years after the average amount of time it's supposed to take. We are unbelievably lucky on all monetary fronts, and, b'ezrat haShem, hopefully that luck will continue.

To celebrate my good fortune, I made sure to accomplish a resolution I've had for a while--eat an entire bar of dark chocolate at once. The secret to achieving your dreams is to make sure they're petty and stupid. Emoji Dancing parrot

As is my somewhat years tradition, here's some song lyrics which I've posted nearly every year since I was in university:
A long December and there's reason to believe

Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should

Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood

It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should


I honestly don't remember how I got in the habit of posting those. I think it was adolescent angst and the eternal hope that things would be better, and now I'm just continuing that tradition even though things have gotten better. A lot better. Here's to them continuing that way in 2015. Emoji sunglasses gleam

明けましておめでとうございます!皆さん、今年もよろしくお願いします!

2013 Retrospective

2014-Jan-01, Wednesday 22:31
dorchadas: (Default)
Let's talk about the last year!

I guess the biggest change from the perspective of this blog is that I started actually posting here again. I got inspired by RPGs--as is often the case, I admit--and started my Dungeons & Design series, and I think it was mostly the fact of posting those that got me into the habit of posting about other subjects. There are other factors too, like how I have enough down time here and there at work that I can write posts in notepad, send them home, and then post them. I also stopped friend-locking everything and started defaulting to public posts, even when they're about my life. It's essentially security through apathy--I can see how many people visit my blog, and on an average day it's a couple dozen. I post all these updates to Facebook and Twitter and the truth is that most people don't care. That may be a little sad, but it certainly tells me that the excessive care I was taking about talking about anything remotely personal is unwarranted. Whatever I say will mostly just get lost in the flow of the internet anyway, unless people are specifically looking to read it.

I was hoping that we'd be paid back by at least one of the people who owed us money this year, but it didn't happen. Aggressively didn't happen, in the case of the Japanese Pension Office. Or perhaps passive-aggressively? Regardless, it led to some tight moments at times, especially during the summer, though I do admit that some of that is because I refuse to touch the principal. Now that [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd has a steady paycheck from her internship everything is okay, though I admit my grasping miserliness does mean I'm less happy with our finances that their absolute quality should lead me to be, but overall it's been on an upward trend. And maybe someone will actually pay us this year. A man can dream.

Work continues much the same as it has been. I had my annual review and did better than I did last year, and my job's bureaucracy and policies means that I'll get an automatic raise and a yearly bonus commensurate with my performance. It's theoretically possible that we won't get the bonus, since the amount and whether it occurs at all is based on the AMA's overall performance during the year, but I haven't heard of anything that would indicate that it's not coming. Even if it doesn't, I'll still get the raise. The benefits of working for a non-profit with no shareholders!

In terms of personal improvement, I took up programming! I originally thought about doing it back in May and was given a lot of resources, and later took a Coursera course that I wrote all about. I've even seen found an implementation of Python for the iPad, and since I have my iPad with me all the time at work, I can get that and then have time to bash my head against programs at work as well as at home! Indeed, during my interview for the job I was asked if I knew anything about HTML or programming and I had to say that I did not, so if I can actually learn programming to a useful level I can hopefully get a promotion. The end project was an implementation of Asteroids, and I'd love to do a lot more to work on it than I had to do for the class to keep my hand in, but what I did accomplish is reasonably impressive, I think.

Also, studied Japanese, but on that subject I'm less confident. I maintained my ability, and that's about it.

Last year, I told myself that if I maintained the weight I had reached in August (~77 kg) for a whole year, I'd go get my wedding ring resized because it's rather large now and I'm kind of worried that it will slip off at some point. Well...I did maintain my weight, but I didn't actually get the ring resized--see the above-mentioned grasping miserliness. I also linked up my new iPhone's M7 chip with LoseIt and started tracking my steps and apparently my average number of steps per day is...5,218. Out of the 10K that's recommended. Exercise is healthy basically no matter what, and getting that number up is something I'd like to improve on in the future, but so far I'm doing pretty well on that front.

I made much more of an effort to be social in 2013. In 2012, I think I had the tendency to hermit a lot more, turning down people's invitations and not really inviting anyone over to [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd and my apartment. I'm not sure what exactly it was. It might have been some remaining difficulty with adjusting to the pace of social life in America vs. what it had been like in Japan, maybe some Anxiety Cat--there's a really old one that I thought fit me really well that said something like "too nervous to talk to people, come off as arrogant or standoffish"--maybe just my typical introverted personality, but this year I tried to avoid falling into the trap of staying home all the time. I like to think I succeeded, or at least reasonably well. And it turns out that traveling out to other places isn't really that bad, even on a work night. I tend to apply the maxim "past performance is no indication of future results" to social events if I'm not careful, in the sense that sure I had fun the last time I went to a party, and the time before that, and probably the time before that...but what about this time!?!? That's not a productive attitude to take, honestly. So this year, I made sure to try to shut that off at the pass. Once I get out of the house, then inertia takes over and I'm not exactly going to turn around halfway there. And it turns out that my friends are awesome people and fun to be around to an extent that far outweighs the annoyance of having to change my physical location. Who would have thought, right? Obviously, this has always been true, but it's convincing that little voice that's the trick, and in 2013 I beat it into submission. Or at least, I inflicted grevious wounds.

All in all, it's been a pretty fantastic year, and I'm looking forward to what 2014 will bring.

I realize that posting song lyrics is incredibly emo and so early-2000s as to be aggressively unhip, but it's pseudo-tradition for me, so:

A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should
Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should...
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A bit different this year.

Wassail, wassail... )

*raises a glass*

新年明けましておめでおう!今年もよろしく. Happy New Year, everyone!

As is my custom...

2007-Jan-02, Tuesday 16:05
dorchadas: (Dreams are older)
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And it looks like it will be, too.

Happy New Year!

2006-Jan-01, Sunday 22:21
dorchadas: (Zombies together!)
More later, but for now, suffice to say I had a wonderful time at [personal profile] schoolpsychnerd's.

And I didn't get horribly burned. Hopefully the rest of the year continues on a similar high note.

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